Sometimes the weight of motherhood pushes my shoulders down and instead of looking up, I'm counting the cracks in the sidewalk and watching ants, thinking, "Man, it would suck to be an ant. What if we are ants in a giant world and our personal tragedies are merely the cause of giants walking around to important meetings and trying to keep us out of their houses?"
And then my head explodes.
I miss you blog. I think I'm going to have to come back. My sugary all-happy all-the-time blog is not doing it for me. It's a fantastic family journal and I still plan to use it as a tool to convince my children that they had happy childhoods ("fake it till you feel it" all the way baby!), but I like this outlet. I also have running as an outlet, but writing with feedback from friends? That's a nice outlet too. And it's a great coping mechanism. I just have to be careful that I don't have so many outlets that I check out of my family. Right?
Consider me as the Blogger-Formerly-Known-As-Quitting, but you can call me Steph or &. That would be a funny name for a child. Ampersand. Hahaha. I kill me. Okay sorry.
So what I'm trying to say here, (why does this feel like an awkward DTR with a boy that I like more than he likes me?) is that I think I'm going to try blogging once a week again. (Did I ever do that? Kind of. I was mostly consistent.) And I hope you'll read and once in awhile, just because you like good deeds, you can leave me a comment. (Please.)
10 comments:
HOORAY! There is great rejoicing going on in our household right now :)
Awesome! Can't wait to read all your fantastic posts. You always make me laugh! Ampersand does seem like a great name, some celebrity is going to use it and you'll be able to take credit for it.
I support your decision 100% and look forward to more thought provoking posts. Lately I feel very much like an ant...or a gnat. I've missed you!!
Ampersand? Preggo... Is this really how you are going to announce this? ;)
I'm not pregnant. But I do really think I'm going to have to campaign for ampersand as my next child's name.
oh goodie. your back!
Dear Ampersand, I support your once a week. Love Period.
You are so funny! I love you tons. I can't wait to read more of your semi-sweet not-all-happy all-the-time blog posts!
Dearest Stephanie, I'm so glad we get to see that you are still a real person and that's why we love reading your blog! I do hope when you announce that Ampersand is on it's way, I don't read it on the blog and you tell your favorite aunt named Susan another way. ;)
I just started reading your blog and I think you are hilarious! It seems to me that you have the skill I need of not taking life too seriously. Keep it up! I need your inspiration in my life!
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